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Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Too Many Things!

This post is about 2 months earlier than it should come. By that time I would have had a SURPRISE party, I hope! Way to fish for one, eh?

Anyway, have a lot of stuff on my mind for the last few months, hope this does some justice to all those seemingly random thoughts.

For the last few months, I have this weird feeling of wanting to do many things at one time. Like there is always some place I have to be at. Like there is perpetually something I have to do. A lot of things have happened in my life, but I dont think any of those are the reason for this feeling. I have been thinking a lot about things, maybe over thinking things to be precise. I recently became a part of a local Rotaract Club and I am happy to say that I have stopped feeling out of place there like I used to. Guess it must be the people there. Spontaneous plans are happening almost every 2-3 days. Its a nice feeling.

I am getting to know people better than I hoped to know them. I am connecting with friends from the past, whom I never bothered to keep in touch with but suddenly one day I feel like talking to them. What's App is a blessing in disguise. I have been writing mails, long mails. Earlier I used to write for only people I cared for, people I felt will stand the test of time, people I genuinely liked. Now I guess I that circle is expanding somewhere. I have begun to realize the value of time. Of doing things at the right time. It maybe a compliment that you felt you should bestow upon someone, telling them they look good in a sari, or telling them not to come to work on their birthday and watching their smile, or just while walking along on the road telling the guy next to you how good a friend he is and has been.

These are but small things that go a long way. Appreciating people in long mails spontaneously written at 3 freaking am in the morning because you didn't get a chance to tell them how much you respect them for what they are is a mere inkling of what this feeling is. Calling up people at 7 pm when you know for a fact, that they are busy and yet just asking them a simple question, "How are you?" and hearing that stock reply,"Good!" is what this feeling is. Reminiscing about the good times to spent with your friends at a far away place is that feeling. Its that feeling you get when on a cold morning you are still under the warm covers. That feeling when you look at someone and they just "get" you. That feeling when someone shares their life story with you simply because they want to.

I had written in a previous blog post that I haven't had the time for myself, but I was wrong. I have always had time for myself but have never bothered to use it to unwind. I was constantly caught up in some stupid thought that I should have just drowned out over the new album of Coldplay. Life is simple enough, its long enough to do everything you want, its perfect enough to make you happy. There are moments like this all around us, and sometimes we just choose to ignore them. There are small things we can do everyday but we choose to neglect them.

I guess I found the perfect name for that feeling,"Growing up." For real, this time round.